The Mouth and Being Held Accountable

I've got into trouble repeatedly for my big mouth. When caught in a hairy situation my mouth runs. How much I bench, what I've done and how much I don't care. It's all bad. Whether its through fear, or for intimidation or impression it runs. I need to be more deliberate, no matter what my brain says to say. Timeouts would be a good addition for an already "hot" mouth. I've learned my lesson though, I don't have to be the baddest, hardest guy around. It really is okay to be vulnerable.

If I Die Tonight

Putting my Bible aside
I've read Psalm 51
one last time.
As the final
mournful tear
slides down my cheek,
I mouth "sorry"
to the sky.
Father,
take me home.

A Confession and A Promise

I don't like liars. I don't think anyone does. They cause distrust and because that is the basis of relationships I don't want them around. But, I must admit I am one too. That is a little bit of my hypocrisy. I make excuses about how it's alright, that no one really knows, it's not hurting anyone, it's for my own safety, to mask my own inexperience in a certain area compared to another and I'm too embarrassed to admit it, or simply to impress. Granted, none are reasonable excuses. Not even the "I'll lead you on, but not really lie" routine. From now on, I will no longer lie, not even if it hurts. Honesty is the policy.